the beginning of the end

i started community college today. community college. where people in your community go to college. where people in your community, that you don't really care to see nor be forced into an awkward situation with especially since you are already not digging the whole going to 13th grade, go to college. luckily, my first day played no resemblence to the nightmares i have been having leading up to this day. the day also did not resemble me meeting nice, amazing people and having good eye candy to stare at while my government class rambled on about why and why not the country's stay at home moms should bring in their old, earth threatening, mini vans for cash.
bob marley wannabe: "i think cash for clunkers is stupid"
me: "really? because i think your dreadlocks are stupid"
i did have a nice wide window to stare at which had a beauiful view of an exit out of my community college. exit out of community college. where people in your community exit when they can not handle anymore college! (mental note: staircase is to the left of the government classroom and exit will be to the right of stairs, try not to look like a freak as you burst through the doors)

as i am writing this i am watching the late show, not to be confused with the late, late show with craig ferguson. this is the late show with david letterman. he is talking with anna wintour. i find her intriguing but i can't decide if its for her bob haircut or her english accent. or maybe its the fact that she is like 60 years old! the interview was interesting and only mildly awkward.

speaking of awkward, i am reminded of a few hours ago when i pushed play on my dvr so that i could watch another uncomfortable episode of secret life of the american teenager. i went through my normal routine of watching the show while simultaneously praying that it is almost over. then when it is over, i reflect. and then when the reflection is over i cry a little bit inside because it is hard knowing that i am the type of person that would watch a show about a 16 year old getting pregnant at band camp by a guy that is addicted to sex and once dated a hardcore christian who eventually has sex with her christian boyfriend the night her dad's plane crashes which with the help of her mentally retarded brother she ends up blaming the crash on her losing her virginity and god being frustrated with her which is followed by the retarded brother dumping the dad's ashes onto a golf course.

what's that? you don't believe me?
secret life of the american teenager
abcfamily
7:00 central time
have a look for yourself